Sorry to hear about your situation, brother.
Pursue the beautiful things in life, focus on growing into more greatness of character, serve people to your greatest capacity, spend much quality time with God, and take advantage of this season in your life. There is so much for you to live for, with a whole world of possibilities in front of you.
From J.R. Miller:
We are ever being called to a new life—a holier life, greater activity, and better service. "You have compassed this mountain long enough—turn northward!" Break away from the routine. Do not keep on doing just what you have been doing heretofore. Do not be content to go over the same old rounds. Turn northward—start in new lines, with your face toward God. Do larger things than you have done heretofore. Pray more fervently. Love better, more sweetly, more helpfully. Let Christ have all your life. Do not merely go round the mountain's base—climb up its side! Every time you compass it, gain a little higher range, get nearer heaven, nearer God.
We never should forget with what sympathy heaven looks down upon us continually. God is not a hard master. He knows how frail we are. He remembers that we are dust. Therefore he is patient with us. He judges us graciously. If we try to do our best, though we seem to fail, marring our work, he understands and praises what we have done. With such a master we should never lose heart, never grow discouraged, never become depressed, never let gloom or bitterness into our heart—but should always keep brave, hopeful, sweet—forgetting the past and stretching forward!
"Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but
I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do:
Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:12-14
Check this out, brother.
https://www.gracegems.org/Miller/go_forward.htm